I eat something that lands on you while you sleep

and feel my heart dip with the weight of a coarse-grained, black sand

waiting for its release

into the rest of me 

to be digested,  

transformed,

blown into a 

a matterless envelope 

possessed of

the blue 

that never really reaches us.

Our struggle to be separate 

Iike unbinding the oceans 

to remove this common color.

Maybe I'll grow into never knowing the right positioning or 

how long we stay here holding you forever 

You wake and smile.

Your teeth like precious strata.